I want to hold you...but everything I touch breaks and dies......

the shadows of destruction have started talking,
our voices, pleading for help, have started walking.
The sky filled with smog is stalking
the ground as its us that the governments mocking.
we see that life here on earth is shocking............
earth, the color of an early death,
wind, the sound of our last breaths.
water, addictive as crystal meth,
the grass, a comfort, when worn muscles need rest.
the earth is being stressed.
pollutions making this life a mess
the entire economy's awful at best
and this hard life on earth is just a test.
this life on earth, it never ends,
if we give up and quit then time will bend.
a message of love for life, we should send
but we're too busy with our own scars to tend.
and all the president does is make this worse,
slowly killing us as we all work.
in the shadows if life, the government smirks
because we were brought to life to watch them kill the earth........

the hell? all it did was friggin rain...my science teacher must be effin retarded...

who is ur fave member of the band? what do u think of the lyrics from the heroin diaries soundtrack? whats ur fave song from them? can u believe nikki's turning 50 this year?! have u been to any of their shows?

I'm leaving today :( **cries** its june 23, and I'm mega uberly sad X( august is such a long time away........

www.eekline.com get one now!!! im serious, get an eekline cuz without you, it sucks! like if more ppl were on then it wouldnt seem like a waste of space and it has so many people. so get one and make it more active

hey people........ I'm going to maryland on June 13 and I won't be back until sometime in august.......while I'm there I won't be logging on that much because my grandparents (the people I'm staying with) don't hav a computer so I'd hav ta go to the library and going there just doesn't happen often enough =( my last login until I return will most likely be June 12. I'll miss you all, even those of you that I don't really know yet. I am excited to go to maryland but I hate to leave you all behind =( could you come with me?

a man named pete went into a bar one saturday and, having heard that the bar owner was a betting man, said " i heard you're a bettin man"

in response the owner said "im always a bettin man"

having heard that, pete said "I'll bet you 10 dollars I can lick my right eye"

taking a while to think about it, the bar owner agreed to the bet.

pete took out his glass eye and licked it.

the bar owner paid his 10 dollars and told pete to leave.

the next saturday pete came back and said to the owner "you still a bettin man?"

a little cautious the owner said "I told you I'm always a bettin man"

satisfied pete said "I'll bet you 50 dollars I can bite my left eye"

the owner took a moment to ponder this and since there was no way pete had two glass eyes, agreed

happily, pete took out his dentures and bit his left eye

the owner once again paid pete his money and told him to get out.

Once again, pete came back to the bar the next saturday, this time he went to the back of the room to talk to someone, and then came up to the bar. He said to the owner," I want a shot of vodka"

the owner gave him the vodka and watched

pete then said "I'll bet you 100 dollars I can piss in this cup and not miss a single drop"

Knowing there was no way he could lose, the owner agreed.

Pete stood up and sprayed piss all over the bar owner, the counter, and the shelves.

The owner just watched and laughed as hard as he could.

the owner said "pete, why would u bet 100 dollars when u know u couldnt make it?"

as pete handed over the money he said "I bet that man back there 10,000 dollars I could piss all over you and your bar and u would just stand there and laugh"

IF WE HAD SEX

(1)would u b in control? no

(2)would u get on top? if u want me to.

(3)would u whisper in my ear? yes

(4)would u talk dirty to me? maybe XD

(5)would u kiss me with a little or alot of tongue? a little

(6)would u say my name? yes!!!

(7)would u go down on me? maybe

(8)would u let me giv u a hickie? ya XD

(9)how many rounds would we go? as many as u want =)

(10)what would u wanna do afterwards? lay in ur arms

(11)would u take off all ur clothes and then take mine off slowly? if thats what u want

(12)would u lick me and bite me all over? maybe

(13)would u like 2 play or get straight to the point? play

(14)would u want me to take my time? yes yes yes!!!

(15)would u fall asleep when we're done? depends.....

(16)would u want me to go fast or slow? slow and then get faster

(17)where would u wanna "do it" at? anywhere that my parents are NOT at

(18)would u b loud or quiet? quiet, sry =/

(19)would u mind if i liked u? no

(20)would u do it today? maybe

(21)would u do it tommorow? maybe =D

(22)would u make me moan? oh yes!!! XD lolz

(23)would u repost this, so u could c what i hav to say about u? i already am :)

 name: nichelle lindsey, age: 14, location: council north carolina, height: kinda tall 5'7 or 5'8, hair: dark brown...sometimes light brown...., eyes: dark brown....almost black..., piercings tattoos: soon

OTHER

(1)where would we go on dates? movies, resturants, concerts, the fair,...anywhere else u wanna go

(2)who r ur three fave bands? sixx:am, mcr, fallout boy

(3)do u smoke/drink? drink

(4)do u like the beach?.....its ok...

(5)if so...would u go with me late at night? ya

(6)do u like movies? yea

(7)if so, would u stay up and watch them with me all night? yes

(8)if u were 2 take me out to a movie would we watch it?.......maybe =)

(9)if not, what would we b doing? XD umm lets jus say ppl would b staring and lil kids would cover their eyes lolz

(10)do u play an instrument? yup

(11)if so...what? the piano....i wish i could play guitar....

(12)would u call me right after we saw eachother to make sure i made it home alright? sometimes

(13)how would u rate ur hugs from 1-10? 11 lolz

(14)fave body part on a girl/guy? chest for guys and girls......sumtimes the eyes

(15)what would u say is the best thing about urself? i listen to ppl's problems and always try my best to make sum1 feel better

(16)do u hav any reps? nope

 (17)would u give me kisses just bcuz? yea,

What Would You Do If... I cried: try to make u feel better,

I said I liked u: ask u out,

I kissed u: kiss u back,

I wanted to hav sex with u: depending on how well I know u.....I prolly would let u,

I touched ur ass: blush,

I was hospitalized: cry and come visit u,

I ran away from home: go after u.......or kill myself.......yea I'd prolly commit suicide.......unless u let me know where u go........,

I got in a fight and u were there: defend u,

I got dumped: let u know that u still hav me, make u feel better, get u some chocolate lolz,

I pissed u off: get over it,

What do You Think Of My...

personality: u seem cool so far,

eyes: I can't c ur eyes,

hair: hot,

clothes: awesome,

voice: I've nev heard it,

humor: u got a great sense of humor =D

choice of music: idk yet

manners: umm idk about that yet either lolz

friends: they look cool but idk them

decisions: umm based on ur journals i huess they're good

 

Would You...

be my friend: ur bestest

tell me the truth no matter what: umm i'd mostly be honest with u unless it would hurt ur feelings

buy me a b-day gift: yupp

lie to me to make me feel better: ya

spread rumors about me: no

go out at 4 am to get me chocolate: if u really want sum

keep a secret if i told u: of course

loan me sum cash: yea

hold my hand: yea

keep in touch: yes

make me a snack: yup

try to solve my problems: try my best

love me: always

"Serena! Serena get up!" said I voice I vaguely recognized. I know that melodic voice but its difficult to guess who it belongs to while I'm still in the gray fogginess of sleep.
"go away......" I mumbled trying to drift back to a dream I had about.......
"Chase?"
"Serena we're going to be late if you don't get up!"
".......go.......I'll just be late......" I mumbled still half asleep.
why did I have to choose last night to sleep in just my blue lacy bra and panties? Last night out of all the nights I could have chosen, it had to be that one.......
"rena, I'm not going to leave you here to get fussed out by miss saggy"
I wish he could know somehow that he HAD to leave the room......
".........oh.....sorry are you....naked....?" he said and I saw that slightly teasing smile he gives whenever he catches anything I meant to hide from him.
"well......no.......but could you please at least leave the room?" I was on the verge of begging.
"why? I've seen you in a bikini before......I don't see a difference if I'm in here while you get dressed"
".......fine...... whatever......."
did I shave my legs last night? yea I think so......
I could tell my face was burning deep red as I felt his honey coloured eyes watching me.
"oh, I don't care if you're in your underwear"
there goes that teasing smile again.
my face felt like it was on fire as he watched me get dressed .......I can't help but wonder why he seemed so interested in me....
when I bent down to pull up my jeans I couldn't help but to look up......when he saw me, looking at him watch me his face reddened ever so slightly. "I'm going to brush my teeth, brb" when we were in the 7th grade we got a weird habit of speaking in txt... as I was running the water, I heard the slight rustle of pages turning...... my notebook was on the floor! "you need to stop writing in cursive, I can't see who's name you have with hearts all around it" I couldn't see him but I knew he was making that gorgeous teasing smile again.... "why are you going through my stuff?!" I asked when I had rinsed my mouth out. "how come you never finish your sentences in here?" he asked in reply...... "what are you talking about?" "everytime I see 'we should be happy, me and......' you never finish the sentence" well, at least he doesn't know that its all about him.......every crazy scribble, every little 'we should be happy me and.......' its all about him............. I looked up and he was coming towards me with the notebook. "put my notebook down.......please?"

hey jamie/parariot we luv u......now watch in a few days, this is going to be filled up really high with comments cuz ur smexi lolz......and ur nice........did I forget to mention extremely smexi? ha ha I would post a pic but I'm a retard plz dont ask.......sora......I'm expecting u to be one of the first to buzz......if u dont then this message will self destruct in 10-9-8-7-6-5 ha ha jk =D
para, idc if I never seen u cuz ur attitude is sexi......jamie......ur just sexi all the way so ha! lolz

scabbed wings........broken heart.........bleeding black, she's torn apart........she cries, she screams........and still no one hears..........she's drowning in loneliness.......drowning in tears.......day by day, she fades away........looking forward to her grim fate.......she barely looks alive......she's dead inside.......in the shadows is where she hides.........her heart has stopped but she's still here.....now she's torn apart from fear......she wants to leave......she wants to die......so she summons the courage.....and commits suicide.......... by
Nichelle lindsey........

First four lines is the chorus. There are three choruses.

chorus: Broken soul and bleeding heart.
Laughing as I fall apart.
Anorexic, paper thin.
Extremely pale with snow white skin.

I want to break away!-----)
Kill me now and let me go!-----)
Just let me break away!-----)
Life is a new form of torture.
Guitar solo
chorus: broken soul and bleeding heart.
Laughing as I fall apart.
Anorexic, paper thin.
Extremely pale with snow white skin.

Screaming, crying, break into a million pieces, dead.
Hating everything I was, I'm glad I'm finally gone.
scars all over legs and arms show the many times I've tried.
I still had to burden you to help me commit suicide.
Music playing. chorus: broken soul, my heart has stopped.
Youre watching as my body drops.
Anorexic, paper thin.
extremely pale with snow white skin.

guys: nikki sixx, dj ashba, scotty vanity, jeffree star, the singer from escape the fate, the singer from mcr, stevie, jeffree star...thats it.
girls: jamie, tila tequila, avril levigne, lacy from flyleaf, dani from a shot at love, daisy from rock of love 2, and rachel ray( idk y...she cooks and stays pretty)
bands: mcr, patd, fallout boy, sixx:am, hinder, linkin park, avenged sevenfold, escape the fate, deepfield, shinedown, disturbed, Evans blue, system of a down, afi, escape the fate, nonpoint, rise against, jimmy eat world, age of daze, chevelle, medic droid, Hollywood undead, trapt, Egypt central, coheed and cambria, 30 seconds to mars, bullet for my valentin, crossfade, smile empty soul, scary kids scaring kids, paramore, papa roach, plain white tees, daughtry, finger eleven, five finger death punch, saliva, thousand foot krutch, death cab for cutie, and blood simple.